Thursday, July 29

For You.

I knew there are some things that happened to upset you
and made you changed your mind.
And i'm always understand that, i think.
However,
after received your message, I doubt.
I can't really get it,
the purpose of you sending me the message.
For you to feel better?
Do you really feel better?

That's not the issue that matters,
I don't really mind it,
whether or not to buy it.
But,
being so clearly informed that i'm not in your gang,
well, I guess,
you couldn't expect me to feel nothing.
I would rather you had never sent me the message,
keeping me unknown so that I would be able to face you, more easily.
It's not the first time, though.
Just that i understand why you behaved like that.



P.S. I'm not writing this to blame you or what,
it's not your fault, anyway.


Sunday, July 11

我是一个很懒很懒的人

我知道
我会因为我的惰性
失去很多东西
但我改不到
也变不了
这就是我

你叫我改变自己
变可爱些
变时尚些
才会有男生喜欢
我不是没想过
可是
变了之后的我
还是我吗?
就算变了之后真的有人喜欢
然而却是喜欢不是我的我
这样有意义吗?
你可以说我固执
可是我就是这样

我渴望爱情
可是已经不在意会否得到爱
因为它从未出现过
所以我的人生里
,爱情
会排最后

Langkawi回来之后
曾承诺自己说要做到的
除了做part time之外
一样也没做到
,就连part time也是朋友介绍才去做的
却也做到半途而废
意志力薄弱
没有恒心
还说要拿 first honour
真是笑话